Last weekend, I was blessed to be able to attend
a women's retreat at Chamber's Wesleyan Camp.
The speaker was very enjoyable, the music was great
and I had quite a bit of time to reflect on my walk
with the Lord.
The weekend came to a close on Sunday with a
wonderful time of singing, Communion (including
a special message regarding the Lord's last words
to His Disciples at the last supper) and then the
closing message.
The communion message really hit home for me.
The speaker talked about how important it is to her
to give parting words to the people that she loves
(i.e. just dropping her daughter off at college).
I too, feel very strongly about giving words to my kids.
Just ask my kids, I am famous for giving them 'words'
before my husband and I leave to go on trips, etc.
Anyways, I was instantly reminded of the last words
that my own Mom spoke to me a week before she died.
Her words hurt me deeply.
After we had communion, the main speaker started
speaking about family relationships and FORGIVENESS.
Needless to say, the two messages brought conviction
to my heart.....and I had to ask the Lord to forgive me for
my unforgiveness.
Even if I am not angry about what my Mom said and did
to me her last few years on this earth.....the fact that I have
been "holding on" to the pain, needed to be dealt with.
Oh the grace of the Lord, to heal and strengthen when I am weak.
May HE be glorified in my life, as I seek to live according to
His perfect plan.
4 comments:
i love you mom and am so thankful that you are full to overflowing with loving words for me!
love U 2, my fav' girl :o)
Your post hits home with me in 2 ways: First, I too had an extremely rough relationship with my mother before she died. In fact we were not speaking AND the night before she passed she left a very nasty message on my anwering machine--it was in the middle of the night--in a state that we came to believe was brought on by the brain aneurysm that took her life. So I completely understand your pain!!
Secondly, I just started the second month of my Bible Study and it deals with forgiveness--being it for others and ourselves. So,again I feel you situation!!
It is a tough thing-to forgive yourself. Esp. when you never realized-all along-that you needed to!!
God Bless!
Have a great weekend!!
Just wanted to wish you & Shel's Padre a Happy Happy Birthday!!! Yesterday was my MIL's b-day and today is their 55th Anniversary!!
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